Lady Who Almost Committed Suicide 2 Years Ago Due To Depression, Celebrates 2 Years Of Being Alive

A young lady named Ngozi Andrew is thanking God that she didn’t commit suicide 2 years ago.

She went further to narrate the circumstances that pushed her to almost commit suicide.

She had lost her job, had no money and couldn’t pay rent, she was also being harassed for a family debt.

She felt like a failure because all her classmates were ahead of her.

She bought the sniper 500 naira, and was ready to end her life, but realised it wasn’t so easy.

Her neighbor distracted her, hence she’s alive today.

She shared a vital lesson learnt about life,

She wrote;

“If you kill yourself trying to meet up expectations, you will be shocked at how quickly the people you thought couldn’t live without you will pick up their lives and move on”.

Read her post below;

Today would have been the 2nd anniversary of my death.

On Tuesday 3rd December 2019, I tried to kill myself. My weapon of choice, the insecticide in the picture.

I had lost my job, had no money and couldn’t pay rent so I lived with my brother in his one room apartment.

To make matters worse, I was being harassed for a family debt I had guaranteed, plus Christmas was approaching with all the pressure associated with it.

All around me, good things seemed to be happening to everyone but me.

Classmates getting married, buying cars and houses and generally doing wonderful stuff.

I felt like a complete failure and soon fell into crippling depression.

I lost my sense of self worth and the will to live in one fell swoop and so I decided to end it all.

I bought the poison for 500 Naira at the time and waited for the right time to take it.

That Tuesday, after my brother left for his business at Alaba International Market, I locked the door and brought out the bottle.

That day I realised how difficult it is to actually take your own life.

I broke the seal and thought of my mother and siblings.

How will they react?

Will I put my brother into trouble with the police for doing this in his house?

I kept the bottle and wrote a note clearing my brother of any wrongdoing, and strongly emphasizing that I’m doing this on my own accord.

As I lifted the bottle to my lips with tears streaming down my face, a neighbor whose daughter used to stay with me whenever she is going out called my name through the window.

“Aunty Ngoo open the door, I want Miracle(her daughter) to stay with you, I’m going to the market.”

I kept quiet hoping she will think I had gone out and go away but she intensified her knocking and shouting my name.

I put away the poison and opened the door.

Till this day , no one in my family knows how close I had come to ending my life( hopefully they won’t read this).

I knew that day, that it was God that spared my life.

This time of year, especially in the Igbo ethnic group where I belong,( I’m sure other groups can relate too) we are put under undue pressure by Family, friends and society to show what we’ve achieved throughout the year.

Family expects you to come back home with bags of rice and other gifts.

Children and siblings expects new clothes and shoes, mothers expects wrappers and uncles expects an assortment of dry gins.

If you can afford these things, by all means buy them but if you can’t , don’t let anybody put you under unnecessary pressure.

If you kill yourself trying to meet up expectations, you will be shocked at how quickly the people you thought couldn’t live without you will pick up their lives and move on.

As Christmas approaches be kind to yourself first of all, then be kind to others.

Have a wonderful new month, a great weekend and a merry Christmas in advance.🌹

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