Taymesan Opens Up On How He Fell Into Depression And Even Started Having Very Dark Thoughts After He Became Famous

Many people think that once you get to the top, once you find fame and fortune, that everything will be smooth-sailing and joy from there. But that’s not always the case, and it for sure was not the case for media personality Taymesan who is a new interview with Pulse Nigeria, opening up about how he fell into depression and even started having very dark thoughts after he became famous. Here’s what Taymesan said.

Speaking about how he fell into a very dark place after becoming famous, and why he started wearing sunglasses everywhere, Taymesan said:

TAYMESAN: At some point, I wanted to let go of the career. Like, I wanted peace of mind. My biggest issue was that how can you get here, you have struggled to get here and yet you don’t have peace, you’re not happy. I had money. That’s when I was traveling up and down. I thought that traveling up and down would solve the internal issues, it didn’t.

When people say they go through depression, I used to be like abeg gerrout. What’s depression as life sweet reach? But then, when I would wake up in the morning, I would not want to get out of bed. I’m only beginning to understand what I was going through was depression. I was so unhappy and it was not unhappiness that was fleeting, it was constant. It was like everyday was a struggle.

I started going to church and I would cry in church so much that I would have to cover up my with my shades, like my sunglasses, that’s why I started wearing sunglasses so much because the tears were just flowing. And now I realize that God was purging out the things that were in me that were hurting me, but at the time, I was just like this is too much for me. This is too much for me and I didn’t have an outlet.

Because at the time, I was also messing with friends who were not exactly like deep, we were just always surface y’know because I’d gotten into the celebrity space. So there was nobody I could talk to, and also like even though there were some people that I could speak to, these things were deeper than just a conversation. There were friends who were also going through their own problems that I would come and say “this is what I’m going through” and they would offer some advice but it didn’t really fix what was going on with me.

One day I was driving on Lekki-Epe and I said to God, “you know that if you take me now I’ve done my time” and I caught that thought and was like Jesus Christ Temisan. I was 26 at the time. I was like Jesus Christ, this is terrible. I’ve always loved life. I’ve always loved the idea of you know, being a star and everything. I’m like how have you gotten to the point where you’re thinking about this? So I parked the car and I was like “God please. I don’t know what this mood is and I’m really tired of being in this space. Help me fix this cause you’re the only one that I’ve always known.”

Source: Jide Okonjo

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